Reality really sucks.
These days I am always stuck in my room trying to figure out the academic papers, equations, codes, programs for my FYP which is horrible....I feel like a headless chicken running around trying to find my head.
There are things in my 4 years in NUS that I feel I have done right and things that I have not.
Things that I am happy that I have done are joining publication in year 1 and skating club Exco in year 2, applying for Tembusu in year 2, going on exchange. The experiences and friends I made are the best I had in my life.
Things that I have regretted doing is interning at Keppel and my FYP and not participating in more clubs and societies in my first 2 years. But it is through doing these shit work that I found out about the things I hate and can't do.
When you are always succeeding, you are alright with doing the thing, but when you first fail at it, it is at the moment when you will realize it is your passion as it decides whether you will carry on plowing on and trying again or just feel like quitting. I chose to do engineering because I was just good at math and science, not because I have a genuine love for it. Now it seems as if I am hitting the difficult part of engineering course and I am coming to hate it a lot, especially the research part.
No research job for me I guess. (plz just let me survive this final year)
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